20040131

20040131

Ha... It's January 31.... My winter vacation is about to finish.....


Found out FF music on Yahoo! aucion web site, but it's 5-line piano staff and it belongs to FF7, so I'm still hesitating whether I should buy it. I do like the music of Final Fantasy. But I'm not familiar with FF7, it may not be wise to buy a thing I don't even like. Well, there are still 2 days I can think over. Maybe I can decide during the following 2 days.

Yesterday is Mom's birthday in lunatic calendar. But I didn't even say "Happy birthday" because I have the problem "Will she really be happy?" And antoher problem is that I have no talent about saying good things. But I wonder whether she got sad about it. I'm so sorry about that but can't tell her.....


I made the lunch myself today, thinking that cooking is not THAT difficult. But I also know that everything is the same, easy to learn but hard to be professional.


Found a learning course about guitar music from the board of guitar club of TCFSH (TaiChung First Senior High) at OFO BBS station. I was a little sad that we, Viator graduators, were not involved. But elder Young said that "The most important thing is PLAY your own music." It's not fault but I still wanna learn more...... Maybe I'd better get back my desire of learning first......

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20040128

Just right now find out from bbs.cs.nthu.edu.tw that in the Echo Club of NTHU exist many bands who have personal pages. I haven't heard those yet, but I wonder how will I feel when I listen. After all, they publish their albums by theirselves. Though the albums include more than one band, I still want to learn how to make a album or record.

That also reminds me that it's my purpose to learn about this kind of things when I entered THBS. But what will going on next in THBS, I wonder? The quetion is the same when I face other 4 clubs, too. Eventually, things don't go as I thought that satisfacory.

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20040127

Long time no see! I'm at home. I'm ashamed about that I haven't done enough things I wanna do. All what I have done is play Final Fantasy 7 and visit the winter training of guitar clubs. Though both of these things are what I want to do, I get a little angry 'coz I haven't exercise enough and practice guitar enough.

I'll go to HsinTsu on Feb. 2 for Harmonic Camp taken by Tsing Hua and Taiwan Normal University. It seems slower than other winter vacations before, but I still think it's too quick. Maybe it's the life and the time. I've noticed that time goes faster when my age grows. I wonder how many things I liked I can do before I die? Will I die with happiness? It seems so early to think such a thing while I'm so young.......

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20040108

　　被室友Joe說中，真的開始有點閒的發慌了。原本以為自己有一堆事要做，應該不會有這種感覺的，但像現在這種下課後離導聚還有30分鐘的時候就覺得沒什麼事可做了。不過仔細想想可以來系計中打日記或是上一些很久以前就想看的網站嘛！

　　昨天晚上在的MSN Messenger還挺忙的，不知道是大家看出我名字「祝軋車、龍潤、愛芸，還有表姐的弟弟....生日快樂」的玄機，還是真的有人在幫我宣傳？真的是第一次有那麼多人跟我說生日快樂(特別是3分鐘內講了不下10次的oldmonk)，而且也是第一次收到兩份以上的禮物(一份是cutecloud，一份是supersmart和oldmonk的)，終於有點了解上次幫韋婷慶生時她說的感動了。


　　但是從昨天凌晨Hans來跟寢室跟我說「生日快樂」起，不管是聽到或是看到這四個字，都會想「我真的快樂嗎？」(起源自有次國慶日時國民黨對執政的民進黨的反諷標語)我的確因為接受到很多人的祝福而很高興，但是這就是快樂嗎？


　　我知道自己是很幸福的，不管是父母給我的管教方式或是從小到大的機緣，甚至是自己的體格和頭腦也都還算有人羨慕。我想我應該可以就憑這些而自得起來，當然不是以此炫耀，而是建立一種自信吧！大多數人的自信都是這樣來的呀~~


　　今天凌晨晃到滾可的時候看到自己在三月(放榜前)的時候自己鼓勵hope(藝名G.F)的文章，裡面有一段還可以激勵自己：「夢想，當然遙遠，但還有什麼會比夢想更近？還有什麼比夢想值得追求？」


　　那麼，繼續努力吧！一定要幸福唷！Instead of losing your way, you should RUN to your dreamS DIRECTLY!!!


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　　waynec借我太七了，寒假至少不會忙到無聊^^


　　洗澡時想到幽遊白書的藏馬，他總是在有人拿南野秀一的母親當作威脅的時候有著生氣的表情，但是當他面對黃泉說：「這是你教我的呀」的時候，究竟會是什麼樣的感覺呢？曾經冷酷的妖狐，在有了人類之軀後也有了感情嗎？但他又曾說絕不會放棄任何東西，所以....??


　　我好像似乎只會這樣子只想自己的東西。楓橋的電台版在討論楓橋的沒落問題，我雖然把那篇文章下載下來但卻沒有細看，校長的信也是這樣，我只知道應該看卻沒有看....


　　那麼，開始做事吧~~

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20040106

　　原本想要繼續讀今天要考但卻還沒讀完的普物，但是被MSN Messenger的名單嚇到(plokm學長在不通知我的情況下叫大家把名字都改成"隨生"....)，想說來記下這個感覺，卻又被暴增的六篇留言嚇到。

　　看了一下留言的內容，是一位不知道認不認識的人留的，看情況似乎也很有可能他不會再來留，但我還是很高興。高興的不是我的網誌有人氣了，而是很慶幸自己又被刺激了一下。他提到正式因為悠閒才能夠多看表演，不過其實也可以說是"忙著"看表演吧??"悠閒"的意思如果包含了"自得"的含意的話，我應該也可以算是悠閒才對。


　　那麼plokm學長為什麼要叫大家改名呢？我不知道。心中猜測的可能是，他可能又想把名字改成"衛中吉他11屆社長"，但是想起我不會跟大家一樣的跟進，所以乾脆就改成我的名字，好讓衛中吉他的人都有一樣的名字。也算是心血來潮吧??這種行為的確增加了人生的樂趣~~


　　那麼普物看樣子是必須放棄整個38章了，似乎須要重新省思讀書的方法。不過還是要先把眼前的事做好。(唉....又迷惑在"輕重緩急"上面了)


　　明天就成年了，沒有長鬍子的確讓自己還頗在意。另外一件可惜的事就是雖然明天幾乎是放假的狀態，但是卻因為還不會騎機車而不能考駕照，印象中發照日期是自己的18歲生日的話應該還蠻有趣的....


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　　還有十多分鐘，目前只有收到小花學姊的卡片，她寫的密密麻麻，差點連署名的地方都沒給自己留下^^||，不過還是很感動，總覺得我的個性只會讓很少的幾個人比較接受，而我又常常不知道究竟是哪些人比較了解我。


　　突然在想plokm學長的"改名隨生活動"會不會是給我的禮物。不過以我對他的印象來說，應該不會吧，等可以連上未舊後去問問看好了^^||


　　目前在讀資應，是alexegg同學的課本，所以雖然是後天下午考，我還是答應明天中午還給他，我想這樣對他還有其他要跟他借的人應該比較公平吧！不過自己就沒有把握能夠把課本讀完了。其實已經很意外的讀的下去，或許是因為有意識到這些東西對我很重要的關係吧，希望可以在pass之外多充實一些對資工系是常識的知識。


　　回文的那位究竟是不是認識的人呢？我不知道。不過既然打算把日記公開，我就已經有"對別人的評論會被當事人知道"的打算了，所以我也不打算因為他/她在此留言而不在日記裡提到他/她。


　　真的希望可以把想做的事做完，或許我應該把心態改成"能做想做的事就應該高興"吧，不然還是會一直給自己"還有某事未完成"的壓力。隻前還以為自己不會有壓力，真是天真=.=///

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